Autobiographical
Why I Am Who I Am |
It all goes back to when I was only five years old. The experience hit me hard. I still remember like it was just yesterday and it affects me but I’ve learned to cope with it. My dad was taken out of my life and it really has and did affect me in all aspects of my life. Many people question and ask why I adore and respect my dad as much as I do since he was only in my life for such a short period of time and the answer is based off quality over quantity. He taught me more in five years than what most parents do in a lifetime and for that I respect him. As a young child a parent is everything to a kid. He was my teacher, my best friend, my dad and best of all my better half. It was lonely growing up without my dad. I was just a lost child when he was gone. Growing up with only one parent was hard financially, emotionally and especially mentally. I definitely know that being mentally strong is one of the best characteristics to have. Not having my dad in my life made me really focus on school. I knew that he would be gone for a long time so I kept myself busy with my studies and it ended up being the biggest advantage ever. I knew that if my dad wasn’t there to comfort me the sight of a book or homework would keep me busy and keep my mind off things. I was challenged -- mentally everyday having to deal with my emotions, thoughts and questions that felt like they were never going to get answered. With my dad out of the picture, I had no choice but to grow up and learn the world around me. I learned that I must appreciate everyone and everything that is in my life at that every moment because I’m not assured that it’s going to be in the next chapter in my life. I know that in the end you can only rely on yourself to get a job done which is why I’m so independent and because I am the only person responsible for my success, future and happiness. I became a very stubborn and mad person, I didn’t want any input from anyone I wanted it my way. Some may say that it isn’t a good quality but it made me the independent person I am today. I make sure I don’t rely on anyone for anything. When it comes to school, I try my absolute best so that when my dad and I reunite he’ll be proud of the little girl he left behind and be able to see her go to a great university. What I’m most proud of is that I could've used this as an excuse to make stupid decisions but I used it as an asset instead. Every characteristic I hold in me leads back to my dad and I’m proud to say that because of this tragic downfall I am who I am. Due to life that I had all I want is a better future for myself so that I don’t have to worry about my financial needs. I want to be able to live a way better life than my mom was able to provide for me. I hope that if I ever decide to have children I take all my choices and decisions into perspective and know that whatever I decide to do will affect all of my family.
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Scicon Taught Me More Than Nature |
Going off to Scicon was a new experience for me. It opened up my eyes to see many qualities and characteristics that I didn’t know I had. I proved myself right and I learned a lot about myself. Volunteering as counselor was the first time I was away from my family and it was actually qutie fun. It made me realize that I was capable of controlling a group of kids and being responsible, didn’t think I would be able to be in charge of other people and lead them for a whole week but I proved myself wrong. I had to be a smart decision maker because what I chose to do would not only affect me but my group of kids as well. I was always the student that would listen to the counselor and now it was the other way around. I had control over the kids but I made sure that I didn’t take advantage of it. I also made sure that my kids had the best experience possible. Having a group of kids means putting yourself last and making sure that everyone is happy and healthy. Going to Scicon I learned many communication skills and everyday skills like cleaning,organizing and listening. Knowing that I’m able to talk in front of a big crowd especially with strangers makes me proud of myself. I know if one day I need to stand up for myself I will be able to. The best thing about the whole experience is that I came back knowing so much more of myself. I found out that I’m very responsible and I’m able to make complex situations less complicated. Because when I was there, there was an issue with other counselors in which they didn’t want the kids they had received because they weren’t comfortable with it so my partner and I volunteered to take the kids from them so that they could enjoy their stay at the camp. The week went by so fast and it taught me everything that I know today.
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